Beginning of a journey

I don’t know where to start or how to start but figured I would just let my fingers start typing. This is the beginning of a new journey for me and also my family. I have decided to for go bariatric surgery. Yes, you read correct.. And those who know me know that I have been against this for a few years. I have always thought of it as an easy way out to loosing weight (no offense to those who have had it done) I mean I have no excuse to be the weight I am. I don’t excercise on a regular basis and I have poor eating habits. Actually they are not poor they just don’t exist. You could call me a binge eater. Breakfast is very minimal if not at all I may eat a big lunch and or nothing then dinner is a large meal. I stay up late and often snack while playing on the computer.  There was no intention of even making this decision that day I went to the Doctor for a knee injury. My physician had asked me a few times If I had considered the surgery and each time I would throw my hand up quickly and cut her off with a quick “no thank you”. Till one day I asked her If I was just able to gether information and go from there. I had researched and looked into it. Also, had friends who have had it done and listened to their experiences as well. After some research and going to a few classes I think this is the for me. Yes, it’s a difficult journey but such a healthy journey.

For years I have denied the fact that I am overweight. When I look in the mirror I see a plus size woman but I don’t see a morbidly obese woman and that is what class I fall into. I guess because all my blood levels have been great I still figured I was healthy. Afterall, my husband loves me who do I need to lose weight for and impress. That’s where the denial comes in I do need this. I get on the scale and see that im a few lbs away from 300 and a few months ago at my heaviest I was over the 300 mark. That was a sad day in my life I cried and David would tell me “it’s ok” but it’s not. It’s not ok to weigh about 130 lbs over what you should. But, I do and im finally not happy with myself for allowing me to get this far.

A few friends have always said ” I wish I could be like you” meaning to be overweight and have confidence. I am a very confident person who has a great personality I know that. But, what they don’t see are the moments I do look in the mirror and say “ugh” to myself. I don’t let to many people into my life. I can probably count on one hand the people who really know me. What I don’t let people see is that I do cry, I do care ,and have a heart.LOL…

So, im going to be using this as a venting tool for me and my emotions. I know I will have good days and bad days. Please feel free to ask questions and what not. I am not hiding that fact that I am having this done. I have heard people say “I’m on a doctor assisted weight loss program” or ” I play a lot of sports and drink water” I’m not embarrassed about FINALLY admitting that I do need help with food addiction.  So through this blog and posting pictures and the support of my friends I know I will make it through this and have a successful weight loss. Stay tuned for more!

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5 Comments »

  1. dhyamato Said:

    Although I have yet to meet you in person, I’ve come to know you via the net quite well. You are a wonderful person and i know you’ll conquer any challenge that comes up, including this one!

    Thank you for sharing your thoughts. It’s a great avenue for many in getting the word out.

    Best of luck and I’ll be awaiting your next installment.

    Dwayne

  2. Dana Said:

    Bariatric surgery is one of the hardest decisions anyone can make. For me, it was like admitting to myself I was a failure in every basic way there is. A year later, I am ME again and it is the single best choice I have ever made for myself.

    All I can wish for, Gina is that you feel as amazing as I do right this second. The journey isn’t easy, there are some rough moments you’ll have to get through, but at the end of it…wow! I hope you find yourself in this amazing place and enjoy every second of it.

  3. Kathleen Said:

    I’ve seen this surgery do some bad things, but I’ve also seen it do some absolutely amazing things. I hope that everything is amazing for you and wish you nothing but the best. If there is ever anything I can do to help, please don’t hesitate to call on me. xoxo 🙂

  4. April Said:

    I am so excited for you Gina! I can relate to everything you said 100%. I’m happy to have someone to go on the journey with me. Kudos to you for starting a blog and putting yourself out there. I can’t wait to watch your progress 🙂

  5. sue Said:

    wtg


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